PHOENIX -- We are learning more about the Baby Gabriel case in letters written by Gabriel's mother Elizabeth Johnson. The 45-pages worth of letters were released
Monday by a judge in Arizona.
Baby Gabriel hasn't been seen alive since December of 2009 when he was here in San Antonio. His mother Elizabeth Johnson is charged with kidnapping, child abuse, and custodial interference and is being held without bond in Arizona.
For the first time since the case began, the public got a glimpse into the mind of Elizabeth Johnson and some possible clues behind Gabriel's disappearance.
Early on in the letters to the judge overseeing her case, Elizabeth Johnson tries to convince the judge of her mental stability, writing "I am clearly competent. The mental hospital is my worse nightmare. I can't wait to prove everyone wrong."
Most of her writings are spent bashing her lawyers and the justice system. She then challenges anyone to prove she has anything to do with the disappearance of her son.
"What can anyone say I did wrong? Really? They don't know. I know," Elizabeth wrote.
But the most compelling part of her letters is when, for the first time, she talks about missing Baby Gabriel and gives a glimpse of what may have happened to her baby.
She stated in her letters: "I love my son more than anything, and I've missed him being in my arms or on my hip more than anything. The hardest, most selfless thing to do is to give your child away. In the end, I knew it wasn't fair to Gabriel to live a life with me. I am a train wreck. I don't owe anyone an explanation."
In the letters, Johnson repeatedly asks to have her lawyers removed from her case and to allow her to be under house arrest. Last month, the judge denied both of those requests.Click here to read the letters...